Hopes for 2010 (escrito dia 31/12/09)

don't know why but I'm not happy, excited and hopefull for 2010. It's weird because I'm usually the most excited person in the world with the new year.

This year was the most horrible year ever! Starting with me making the most stupid mistakes and ending with my mom having a breast cancer. Yes, there was some good stuff. I found out that I really love photography. started taking my hobby to some next levels and trying really hard to improve myself. Still, when I look back, there are much more bad things than good ones. I had like two different depressions. It's a record for someone who doesn't even know how depression felt like. It's really bad.

I always try to see the bright side of things, but today I just feel to mmelancholic to see anything other than dark. I just hate this days.

So what did I found out this, almost called last, year? That love sucks, but sometimes is worth. That we cannot always be the person we want to be, and do the things that we want to. It takes a lot of courage to change and move on. I still don't have that kind of courage. I have no courage at all! family is more times a pain in the neck than a refuge.

Anyway... I'm hoping that in this new year that is coming I will find a way to be a better person, to be a little bit more honest with myself and try to be a little bit more happy.

So... This was some kind of ''new year goals'' with some ''last year things to avoid and lessons learned''. Sorry if it was terribly boring, but I just feel a little bit better now. It's funny how a wroth something personal to a batch of complete strangers. anyway, let's not think about it.

Happy new year to you all.


VAMOS LA INTERNACIONALIZAR ISTO! Foi escrito dia 31 de Dezembro de 2009, no deviatART. Daí o inglês.